Dear Suju -9

Eunhae

Dear Super Junior,

We went to garage sales this weekend... I saw a Nemo plushie and a monkey plushie, but the Nemo plushie was still for $5... X.x I'm not yet working, so I can't afford that... ='( And I think I'd rather buy a new one...^-^

Waaaaaaaah. You're in LA... (were? Have you left by now?) and I'm in Chicago... 36 hours away by car, according to my cousin who LIVES in LA... ='( Ugh! I'm so depressed... NOT! Well, I can't let go of this unnameable feeling because I missed out on another of your performances, though I'm sure it's not depression.. I'm just.. wistful... *sigh*

Oh~! I saw you went to Disneyland... So envious.. I went there with my family about 9 years ago... How I wish I came now so I could've seen you... Huhuhu... XD

I borrowed a lot more books, and my aunt borrowed DVDs from the library... By the way, you should watch "The Ramen Girl" and "Snow Flower and the Secret Fan." The second is very much about sisterhood, and I think you'll be able to relate with your brotherhood.. ^-^

The reason I only updated now... We went to an outlet mall and other malls, aka busy shopping (though personally I get bored shopping and end up listening to your music via iPod only)... then yesterday my computer refused to connect to the internet... In my panic this morning, in my desperate prayer, somehow the connection pulled through... Yey! XD 

I'm supposed to review my lessons this summer so I can be prepared to go to the wards this upcoming school year, so I borrowed Microbiology books from the library too... But... I don't have a notebook!! X.x I usually have to take notes (it's become a habit) so I can't study otherwise...

Anyways, if you're still not in Korea, I hope you are able to fly safely home... ^-^

Love,

this wistful, almost depressed, desperate, supposedly studious fan

Dear Suju -8

Sukira MinWook 120517

Dear Super Junior,

I saw you on Sukira livestream today, but just for the last 20 minutes.. You looked so tired! Everyone thought so, and we were worried. Although I think it's natural, considering it's midnight there... ^-^;; But I do hope you get a lot of rest...

I hear you're flying to LA tomorrow? (or maybe the fan was mistaken?) I daresay I still hope that I'll get to see you, although that coming true will mean you going to Chicago and me happening upon where you are. Haha. One in a billion chance? Nah. Outright impossible. I guess I'll just hope you'll have a Super Show 5 in Manila when me and my senpai/ sunbae are free to watch... *sniff sniff*

I really don't have much to say... A friend of mine lent me his hard drive full of anime so I can watch here...^-^ Nice of him, don't you think? XD And I returned about...14 (?) manga and 1 book to the two libraries here... In exchange, I borrowed 3 books and 5 manga... ^-^ My grandmother thinks I read too much, but I have nothing to do here... I can't even fangirl on you because this is a laptop, and it runs out of battery really quick... T_T

Oh well. Please take care on your journey here... I know how boring it is on airplane trips, so please do catch up on much-needed rest... ^-^ And I hope you get to practice your English well... (I'd love to help you practice ^-^)

Love always,

this running-out-of-words, still desperate, just-had-breakfast, bookworm fan

Dear Suju -7

EunHae (Eunhyuk and Donghae)

Dear Super Junior,

Today I only heard one song, Seoul Song (the one with SNSD)... >.< But when I opened the radio at 10:10AM, it was SHINee's Lucifer... ^-^ They're my second bias along with DBSK, but after you... I think I won't let anyone replace you in my heart... I'll always be foremost an ELF... Even though it was Shinhwa, SS501, and DBSK I heard first, when I was uninterested in Kdrama and Kpop... ^-^

I went shopping with my grandma and mom today. My mom wanted to buy me a watch, one with a bigger face than the one my sister gave me as a Christmas gift. I saw one shaped cutely, and it reminded me of a fish! I wasn't really an ELFish, but after reading a lot of fanfiction (some which are based on your reality shows), I've grown to love you, Donghae-ssi.... ^-^ I bought the pastel purple one, but the lock was broken (and the person who was to make the watch fit better saw it), so we exchanged it for the green one, in the exact same style... It made my skin look lighter (or yellower, whichever is more appropriate)...

Then when we were paying for bedsheets (at another store), I saw a monkey!! I can't say Eunhyuk-ssi is in my upper half of biases, but I'm a fan of all of you individually... ^-^ 

I saw a raffle for your concert in California... I SOOOOOOOO wanted to join (and win), but there's no way I can afford to go to California... ='( Please please please, Super Junior-ssi, come to the Philippines... (and give me a backstage pass, heeheeheehee)...

Love always,

this extremely desperate, "kilig", hyper fan

"kilig" is a Filipino term. It's like... excitement, love, and something all together that kind of makes you feel all giddy/ happy and like floating on air... Something like that... ;)

P.S. I was having LSS (Last Song Syndrome) the whole day to Kyuhyun-ssi's voice singing "Wooliga mannage" or however you spell that... :3

Dear Suju -6

Super Junior- Anan magazine

Dear Super Junior,

I got to watch "The Other Boleyn Girl" movie a night ago. It was very different from the book, but good nonetheless. I think I ought to have paid more attention to History when I was in elementary and high school... T_T I've started and finished reading "The Other Queen" too, these past three or so days... It was good, but not as entertaining as "The Other Boleyn Girl." That though, I think, may be attributed to the fact that TOBG had more intricate lies and plots than TOQ... ^^;; My aunt even argued that TOBG wasn't real, though it was historical fiction. It had basis.. >.> Oh well, respect your elders, eh?

I'm so envious of the ELFs who got to watch you on Tokyo Dome. I don't think I'll ever get to watch you perform live.. Yes, I'm losing hope. After this summer vacation (Until June 8), I won't have any more breaks other than weekends. Such a busy course I decided to take... :( But yeah, congratulations, Super Junior-ssi!!! You earned this glory, with all the hard work (blood, sweat, and tears, blah blah that they say) you've put in... Of course, we ELFs should also thank your parents for bringing you in this world and bringing you up to be who you are now...

Belated Happy Mothers' Day, Super Junior's Moms! Belated Happy Mothers' Day to all the moms out there~! ^-^

I think I shouldn't upload the pictures of what the radio played anymore... I'll just list them down...
May 10     9:28 AM         Super Junior          Opera (Jap.)
               11:05 AM         SHINee                Sherlock
                 4:18 PM         Super Junior          Way
                 4:43 PM         SHINee                 Love Like Oxygen
May 13   12:50 PM         SHINee                 Lucifer
                 1:12 PM         Music & Lyrics      Maybe Maybe
                 1:56 PM         B2ST                     Beautiful
May 14   11:47 AM         SHINee                Sherlock
               11:53 AM         Yesung                  It Has To Be You
               11:58 AM         Super Junior          Why I Like You
                 1:04 PM         B2ST                     Shock
                 1:49 PM         SHINee                 Stranger
                 1:59 PM         Super Junior           A Day
                 3:04 PM         Music & Lyrics      Maybe Maybe
                 3:54 PM         U-KISS                0330
                 3:57 PM         SHINee                Stand By Me
                 4:07 PM         Super Junior          A-CHA

I tried to make the lines above straight... I failed... Hehe... >.<

Love always,
your habitual, OC, wistful fan..

Dear Suju -5

Ryeowook + Kiki (giraffe)

Dear Super Junior,

The other day (May 11 in the Chicago), I heard "Opera" playing. Such glee. ^-^ I could imagine the MV playing, and how wonderful you all were. I just wish I am able to watch you perform live. It would be such an honor for me to watch such awesome performers... And even blindfolded, just to hear you sing live, would be an out-of-body experience for me... (SHINee's "Sherlock" was also played.. ^-^ They're my second bias...)

Yesterday, I got to listen to "Way," when my friend linked it to my facebook. Then I heard it a few hours later, on the radio! I didn't know that was the song from the first notes, unlike the more common songs, but I got this gut feeling that it was a Super Junior song, so I stood around for a few seconds until they showed the artist's name. Then I rushed to take a picture of it (though I can't upload it yet)... I was so happy. I heard it for the first time and again on the same day. It felt like a big big sign that I really shouldn't give up my fangirling on you...

So the reason why Ryeowook-ssi is the main picture... Because we went to the stores last night, and I saw this giraffe plushie by the cash register. And you probably know how I think by now.. Giraffe --> Ryeowook --> simple-minded happiness... ^o^ 

Today we went to outlet stores, the stores which supposedly have marked-down prices... We entered a random store, and my mom just suddenly started singing, "Because I naughty naughty.." Isn't that just funny/cute?? My friend thinks it's adorable, I do too, do you?? 

But really, the grammar's wrong... X.x I'm a little OC (obsessive-compulsive) about grammar, so sometimes I feel like contacting SME (no matter how impossible) and proofreading English lines for all SM artists (especially you)... T-T 

Oh! I envy Japan, they have you tonight for SS4... =( I don't even get to go to that concert, and California is far away... (36 hours to Los Angeles where my cousin lives, so it's a no-go for me).. Huhuhuhu... T_T 

Anyways, I think I've been a little weird because I only get to listen to your music once a day, whereas I used to listen for 6 hours a day... o.O I'm not that obsessed though, I just really get calmed down with your voices... I hope someday, if I am able to get married, I get to marry someone who has as great a voice and personality as any of you...

Love lots,

this odd, OC, weird, dizzy fan

Dear Suju -4

Sungmin, Kangin

Dear Super Junior,

Yesterday, I only got to hear one of your songs while reading, even though I waited for three hours. ='( That made me annoyed, since I thought they'd play at least one song per hour. They played A-Cha, the second song I was able to watch from its MV release to its (very) gradual decline. I tried to dance along, but I really don't know how, since my high school banned dancing (and even singing the word in the chorale competition was not allowed), and I studied there since nursery. Needless to say, I could not follow the moves. >.<

I had a headache today, so I placed cold compresses on both sides of my head and listened to YOUR music. I find your voices really calm me down, and before I knew it, three hours had passed. I had less headache thanks to you! ^-^ 

We went to the candy show today too, but I was not allowed inside because you needed to be affiliated with a company. Only my aunt could go inside, so my mom, grandma, and me waited outside. I read a book ("The Other Queen") while listening to your songs again. A great way to pass the time, don't you think??

Oh! I almost forgot, I woke up in the middle of the night last night, and the only thing going through my mind was your song "Don't Don." It started with Sungmin-ssi's part. ^^ Then when I really woke up this morning, "She Wants It" was playing on my mind. Heehee.. ^^

Yesterday too, I watched the full dance MV of Opera. I didn't know who to keep my eyes on, you were all so wonderful. Embarrassingly, I think Sungmin-ssi looks very seductive while dancing. My friend's bias in that dance is Yesung-ssi though... ~.n 

Today too, just before I started writing this, I read some accounts of when SNSD's Taeyeon called Kangin-ssi a retard... That made me a little annoyed. Honestly, although you are friends, I don't harbor love for them. I only like Sooyoung-ssi, because she looks the most natural and kind from all of them. She doesn't seem to be pose-y and doesn't seem to be showing much skin. Sometimes I think girl groups now are showing too much skin, honestly... >.<

I thought about this today: If I could get to meet you, even if I have to sleep on a pet bed, I'd agree! Hehe... I thought this because yesterday and three days ago, my mom and I looked around home supplies and we found a very very soft pet bed. I told her I liked it, and I could fall asleep instantly if I slept there. So I thought that if there is a one in a zillion chance to meet you, even with just that pet bed, I'd have no hesitations.

Love always,

this awkward, still desperate fan

Dear Suju -3

Super Junior- Opera  (...because I can't get over their handsomeness).. 

Dear Super Junior,

Today, I continued reading "The Other Boleyn Girl." I tuned in to Seoul FM again, just to see if it would work. They played Tohoshinki's song (but I forgot the title), and another one of theirs as DBSK. But of course, they played yours too (I might've missed some cause I woke up late), and here's the proof:

 Actually, the first three (Kyuhyun's Hope Is A Dream That Doesn't Sleep , Yesung's It Has To Be You, and Super Junior's Sorry Sorry-Answer) are yesterday's.. Today's are Yesung's It Has To Be You and SM the Ballad's Hot Times... Heehee... XD

Then we went to the botanical garden...
I saw a couple of things that reminded me of you again! :)
First, this: (Guess who I was reminded of!)

 The second was a turtle-like topiary... My mom has the picture, so I can't upload it now... ='(
The third...a pumpkin! (Cut my face out, hehehe)

The last... look at the name, but I misread it... @.@

Misread it as Fishy (aka Donghae)...

So yeah... I guess I'm that in love with you, Super Junior, that I can see you everywhere... @.@ But don't worry, I'm not one of those saesang (sp??) fans who'll follow you to your dorms and do weird stuff... I just have hopes that one day I might meet you. (What fan doesn't??)

We had three hours to go around the gardens actually, but my camera battery died on me and I couldn't tour the huge gardens in that time limit... @.@ I hope to come back there again someday... 

Love always,

this desperate, nature-loving fan of yours... 

Dear Suju -2

Yesung Donghae

Dear Super Junior,

Today I didn't do anything remarkable. I started reading "The Other Boleyn Girl" by Philippa Gregory, though it became famous ages ago.. (Just like I'm a new ELF though you've been famous a long time already.) It made me a little sad, you know... I could feel what Mary Boleyn felt.. Being overshadowed by her sister (and I have two) and controlled by her family, not being heard because she is young... Pretty sad, eh? I haven't gotten to the end yet, though I hope to finish the book by tomorrow...

While reading, I tuned in to the internet radio, and guess what! They played Kyuhyun-ssi's "Hope is a Dream That Doesn't Sleep." I took a picture of it, but I can't upload it now... When I heard the first notes, I immediately went to the radio and turned the volume up... My mom heard it too (because I called her). Then an hour later, they played Yesung-ssi's "It Has To Be You." I also went to the radio quickly and laid down beside it to listen... Then the radio wasn't able to connect to Seoul FM, so I changed stations to BIG something... o.O;; About 15minutes from tuning in, they played Sorry, Sorry- Answer!! Obviously, that just made my day... ^^

So the reason behind the picture... Today I went shopping with my mom, aunt, and grandmother.. Guess what I saw... A nemo __-holder (I wasn't able to read the label), and I was immediately reminded of Donghae-ssi! I swear, the first thing that registered on my mind was Donghae-ssi, not that it was nemo... :p Then walking further, I saw a turtle thing (no idea what it was either), and my thought immediately registered, "Yesung would love this." Hehe... If I knew you guys personally, I'd have bought those on sight! Sadly I don't.. :( 

There was another thing that reminded me of one of your members, but sadly, I cannot recall... Sorry! o.O

Anyway, I guess that although you've really taken over my interests, you're not exactly the only thing on my mind... Although my aunt said that if I say the words "Super Junior" for a hundred more times she'll scream... Meh, that's why I'm always quiet around family... They seem to tolerate my interests less.. ="(

So yeah, I have to think of you only once per day, so I don't use it all up... 

Jia you!!! Wo ai ni men!! :) 

Love always,

This crazy, weird, shy, ever-hoping-to-see-you-perform-live ELF. 

Dear Suju

Super Junior

Dear Super Junior,

Last Friday (May 4), three days ago, I boarded a plane to USA. It had Japan as a stopover. You know what my first thought was? That you were going to hold SS4 there soon. I soooo wanted to ask to be left behind, but I had no Japan visa nor a ticket to SS4... :( It really broke my heart knowing that soon you'll be there.

Stepping into Illinois, I realized with a broken heart that you'll be in California on May 20 (If the news  was correct). That was where my cousins lived! But too bad, I can't just go there to watch you guys perform... It's too expensive, and since school was still in session, only my aunt and uncle will be there... :'( Now, you will be near but still so far... (Although Philippines is just 4 hours by plane from Korea)...

Yesterday, I was so happy! My aunt taught me how to search the internet radio stations on her radio, and there were lots of Korean stations... We tuned in to one (Korea Top Radio), but your songs weren't played... I almost forgot, before that, we were tuned in to a Taiwan station, and they had a hit chart, Donghae-ssi and Eunhyuk-ssi's "Oppa Oppa (Jap.)" was number 2! They only played about 10 seconds' worth though! (SHINee's Sherlock was number 1.) 

So when Korea Top Radio didn't play any Super Junior song for 30 minutes, I changed the channel to Seoul FM. I had to bathe though (it was early in the  morning), so I told my mom to call me and turn up the volume if any of your songs played... And she did! I couldn't hear the start well, so I asked her if it was really yours. She was sure, she said (she tried to sing along but I couldn't understand her).. It was "Tai Wan Mei (Kor. ver.)!! No need to say I think, that I sang along. 

I think she recognized the song as yours because, 1. I play your songs at home like 6 hours a day, and 2. Her bias is Kyuhyun-ssi... ^^

Yesterday too, I went to the library (a haven and a heaven for a bookworm like me).. I was lonely and it was so quiet, then I remembered I had my ipod with me... I brightened up instantly! I have 313 songs of yours (different versions, cuts from shows, sukira, etc) while I had less than 100 English + Chinese songs... Of course, I wasn't so lonely after... XD 

Oh!! Today I was so happy, the time here is different from Korea, so I got to see the Opera full MV before my friends did (since it was only 5AM in the Philippines when it was posted in PumpkinMinPH)... I just have to say...

Super Junior-ssi! You really are tai wan mi!! <3 

Kyuhyun-ssi, you made my heart stop when I heard your voice...

Yesung-ssi, you made me catch my breath when I saw you on the couch...

I'd go on and on but really, it was so breathtaking and heartstopping and I think I died when I watched it...

Extreme fangirling, right? I must've scared you off by now... But really, THANK YOU SO MUCH, Super Junior-ssi!! Without you, my everyday life was so boring and repetitive. I went to school, got home, study, go online just to play games, went to bed, and repeated. Now, I look forward to updates about you, watch your videos while studying, and get to talk to other people more (because if anyone talks about you, I'm all hyper, though I'm usually introverted)...

I really wish someday I'd get to meet you. Promise I won't be this hyper and random. I think I might get starstruck a bit though, but I'll get back to normal soon, promise... I even joke to my ELF friend that I'd apply to be a doctor in SME, just so I'd get to help you when you get hurt (though I'd hate it if any of you get hurt again)... :( But really, I want to go to Korea and study traditional medicine... It would be a 'two birds with one stone' thing... ^^ 

Couldn't you guys have a fanmeet here in Illinois between now and June 6?? Or in the Philippines after June6?? *bawls*

Love lots,

this random, slightly ADHD, slightly extremely OC, maybe bipolar, so-called neurotic fan...

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