Dear Leeteuk

I started a blogspot where I wrote letters to Super Junior... But that was last year, and, as always, my goal to post everyday was not realized... I'm a very lazy person, and it's only when I'm driven by emotions that I actually accomplish things. But right now, I just wish to post a letter to this wonderful leader that has taken over thousands, and maybe millions of hearts...

Dear Leeteuk-ssi,
Right now you're preparing to go to the military, if you're not already there... Maybe you're crying, or maybe your tears have already dried up. I am miles away and wouldn't know until much later, so I guess it's useless to keep thinking about it...

Your wishes...
To find a girl that would wait for you for two years...? Lots of girls are waiting for you...You just need to choose one...
That ELF will wait for you for two years...? ELF prom15e to be with you, til the end of time... (Personally, I waited for 20 years to get to know you and the rest of SJ, I don't think 2 years would matter..) Love is eternal...
That Sexy, Free & Single will reach 50million views...? I'm sorry, we will do our best to reach it ASAP! ELF will never give up, because you never gave up even when other people did not believe in you..

I was terrified when it was spread to the news that you would have to go to the military this year... I barely knew you guys and you're already diminishing in number... I only knew Heechul (in the KBS show 'Secret') without knowing he was a member of Super Junior, although I got the feeling that he was an idol... But I promise, I will always be an ELF... As I always say, "I only love once, so I give my all..."

Millions of ELF are waiting for you, dear Teukie Angel... I hope you never forget that... We will wait for you even if you enjoy yourself in the military and decide to extend your stay there... ^-^ But I hope you don't do that!! 

Love always,
This obsessive, crazy weird, wistful, sad fangirl

Sooooo random, right? I never cease to hope that maybe one day they will accidentally click on my blog and read it... Hehe... But whoever reads this, please visit my fanfiction site: http://www.asianfanfics.com/profile/view/98546 ^-^ Kamsahamnida~!

Oh!! And watch this music video (Click F5 after it finishes), please! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWIkiI_UmeE

(c) Also posted in my LJ account m_ann1130

Sexy, Free and Single

Sexy, Free and Single- 6th jib- Leeteuk

Dear Leeteuk-ssi,

Saengil chukahamnida~

Chukahae on the 6th jib!! ♥ [Ryeowook-ssi's dancing seems to be improving a lot! ^-^]

Be mine~? Hehe... Because you're single and ready to mingle~ ^-^

Love,

this awkward, random, giddy fan

Dear Super Junior,

It's only you...

who can make me giddy in a second... (I can't help but squeal when I see your pictures, MVs, and teasers..)

who can make me change my cheapskate identity... (I want to buy your album, no matter that it costs twice my books' prices!)

who can make me decide in an instant... (What I want to buy, what I want to do)

who can make me step out of my "shell" and talk to others... (Because ELFs are very easy to talk to..)

who can make me count the minutes... (4 minutes to your album release and Leeteuk-ssi's birthday!)

who can make me know what real unconditional love towards somebody else is...

but most of all,

it's only YOU..

who will stay in my heart always...

I may love others...

I may occasionally forget you...

I may be too busy to see updates..

I may be miles away...

I may never be able to see you in person...

I may not have been there from the start...

But this I know, I will ALWAYS be an ELF..

Because promises aren't made to be broken...

Because being an ELF is a promise...

Because ELF means EVERLASTING FRIENDS...

The love you and ELFs have for each other surpasses time and space.

Saranghae, Super Junior.

I prom15e... Super Junior is, and always will be, 15...

Teasers etc

Sexy, Free and Single: Donghae Teaser

Dear Super Junior,

I am writing this with very mixed feelings... I am so in love with your next album! This is the first time I'm anticipating your teasers (being a very young ELF of 9 months), and just learning what the TITLE was was enough to make me squeal. Your pictures, from Eunhyuk-ssi, to Donghae-ssi, to Leeteuk-ssi and Ryeowook-ssi, are very much breathtaking. I don't agree with what people say that Donghae-ssi's picture was edited to make him look more feminine... I think it's the angles and his good genes that made him look this way... My first look at his photo and my reaction was... "Eunhae? Did they just get married?!" The veil on Donghae-ssi is very... unique... ^-^;;;

So, about my sad feelings... It's because I have just seen the accounts/videos of the 2010 GDA. I must say, that was heartbreaking. I am proud to say that I am a fan of people who are good sports... People who can congratulate others even when their hearts are shred into a million pieces... People who have gained strength and determination from something that was meant to trip them up and utterly destroy their faith in themselves... People who carry themselves so as not to have others worry... 

Let's face the facts: Some people would walk out on injustice.. Some people would show their tears to the world, especially because they are right... Some people would think, since they didn't get anything after working so hard, why still work hard... Some people, after getting a massive bout of dizziness (like Yesung-ssi), would prefer to sit everything out, because they are afraid that they will fall once they stand...

Super Junior, you have my utmost respect. I can only hope to have half the courage, passion, strength, and grace you have... You have stood strong for 6 years now, faced controversies, pulled through accidents, and gotten back on your feet, even soaring above your previous height...

Even though people tell me you are only a phase... That my love will falter... That you are getting complacent... That you aren't as hard working as before... That you will not last much longer... That you are autotuned... That you can't sing well... 

ELF WILL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU. I will always be here for you... I don't care that by the time I am able to show my support, go to Korea, and have a glimpse of your faces, you will be old, retired from idol work, and married... I am loyal to those I love, and you, Super Junior, are people I admire, respect, and love...

I love you in the way fans do... Unconditionally... I think that if ever I was born lucky enough to get to know one of you, even if you aren't Super Junior, I would admire you... The strength of your hearts is not something found in a lot of people.. It takes a lot of guts to have done what you did, and to rise up from them... 

"In order to rise
From its own ashes
A phoenix
First
Must
Burn."

Octavia E. Butler

Love always and forever,  Hangsang hamkke halgeora till the end of time,

This psychology loving, emotional, justice-loving, baby ELF..

Happy Birthday, Kim Ryeowook!

Kim Ryeowook

Dear Ryeowook-ssi,

Saengil chukahamnida! Happy birthday! Sheng Re Kuai Le! :)

I didn't realize it was your birthday already, since we have an hour difference... >.<

Thank you for being born into this world. ELFs thank your parents for having you. You are one of the reasons why I can get through every day. Your beautiful voice is one of the things I look forward to hearing all day. It is one of the few things that can calm me down when I am on the verge of breaking down... Although you will never read this, I thank you from the bottom my heart (or amygdala, the center of emotions)... 

I am actually a very quiet person. I talk loud in the hopes of convincing myself otherwise. I don't think people notice that, but you are one reason to hope. You are able to convey yourself through singing, even though you are very quiet... Maybe someday I will find the courage to express myself; someday, maybe I can find the one talent that will help me to do so. 

Your piano skills are simply magical. It is no wonder at all why you are a global star. No wonder why a lot of people are fans of yours. No wonder why people envy you. I hope you never stop playing, because talents like yours are hard to find...

You, your wonderful personality, always so sweet and caring... The person who you spend the rest of your life with would be very lucky... 

An odd closing, Love always,

This sleepy, tired, still-have-school-tomorrow fan...

Dear Suju -9

Eunhae

Dear Super Junior,

We went to garage sales this weekend... I saw a Nemo plushie and a monkey plushie, but the Nemo plushie was still for $5... X.x I'm not yet working, so I can't afford that... ='( And I think I'd rather buy a new one...^-^

Waaaaaaaah. You're in LA... (were? Have you left by now?) and I'm in Chicago... 36 hours away by car, according to my cousin who LIVES in LA... ='( Ugh! I'm so depressed... NOT! Well, I can't let go of this unnameable feeling because I missed out on another of your performances, though I'm sure it's not depression.. I'm just.. wistful... *sigh*

Oh~! I saw you went to Disneyland... So envious.. I went there with my family about 9 years ago... How I wish I came now so I could've seen you... Huhuhu... XD

I borrowed a lot more books, and my aunt borrowed DVDs from the library... By the way, you should watch "The Ramen Girl" and "Snow Flower and the Secret Fan." The second is very much about sisterhood, and I think you'll be able to relate with your brotherhood.. ^-^

The reason I only updated now... We went to an outlet mall and other malls, aka busy shopping (though personally I get bored shopping and end up listening to your music via iPod only)... then yesterday my computer refused to connect to the internet... In my panic this morning, in my desperate prayer, somehow the connection pulled through... Yey! XD 

I'm supposed to review my lessons this summer so I can be prepared to go to the wards this upcoming school year, so I borrowed Microbiology books from the library too... But... I don't have a notebook!! X.x I usually have to take notes (it's become a habit) so I can't study otherwise...

Anyways, if you're still not in Korea, I hope you are able to fly safely home... ^-^

Love,

this wistful, almost depressed, desperate, supposedly studious fan

Dear Suju -8

Sukira MinWook 120517

Dear Super Junior,

I saw you on Sukira livestream today, but just for the last 20 minutes.. You looked so tired! Everyone thought so, and we were worried. Although I think it's natural, considering it's midnight there... ^-^;; But I do hope you get a lot of rest...

I hear you're flying to LA tomorrow? (or maybe the fan was mistaken?) I daresay I still hope that I'll get to see you, although that coming true will mean you going to Chicago and me happening upon where you are. Haha. One in a billion chance? Nah. Outright impossible. I guess I'll just hope you'll have a Super Show 5 in Manila when me and my senpai/ sunbae are free to watch... *sniff sniff*

I really don't have much to say... A friend of mine lent me his hard drive full of anime so I can watch here...^-^ Nice of him, don't you think? XD And I returned about...14 (?) manga and 1 book to the two libraries here... In exchange, I borrowed 3 books and 5 manga... ^-^ My grandmother thinks I read too much, but I have nothing to do here... I can't even fangirl on you because this is a laptop, and it runs out of battery really quick... T_T

Oh well. Please take care on your journey here... I know how boring it is on airplane trips, so please do catch up on much-needed rest... ^-^ And I hope you get to practice your English well... (I'd love to help you practice ^-^)

Love always,

this running-out-of-words, still desperate, just-had-breakfast, bookworm fan

Dear Suju -7

EunHae (Eunhyuk and Donghae)

Dear Super Junior,

Today I only heard one song, Seoul Song (the one with SNSD)... >.< But when I opened the radio at 10:10AM, it was SHINee's Lucifer... ^-^ They're my second bias along with DBSK, but after you... I think I won't let anyone replace you in my heart... I'll always be foremost an ELF... Even though it was Shinhwa, SS501, and DBSK I heard first, when I was uninterested in Kdrama and Kpop... ^-^

I went shopping with my grandma and mom today. My mom wanted to buy me a watch, one with a bigger face than the one my sister gave me as a Christmas gift. I saw one shaped cutely, and it reminded me of a fish! I wasn't really an ELFish, but after reading a lot of fanfiction (some which are based on your reality shows), I've grown to love you, Donghae-ssi.... ^-^ I bought the pastel purple one, but the lock was broken (and the person who was to make the watch fit better saw it), so we exchanged it for the green one, in the exact same style... It made my skin look lighter (or yellower, whichever is more appropriate)...

Then when we were paying for bedsheets (at another store), I saw a monkey!! I can't say Eunhyuk-ssi is in my upper half of biases, but I'm a fan of all of you individually... ^-^ 

I saw a raffle for your concert in California... I SOOOOOOOO wanted to join (and win), but there's no way I can afford to go to California... ='( Please please please, Super Junior-ssi, come to the Philippines... (and give me a backstage pass, heeheeheehee)...

Love always,

this extremely desperate, "kilig", hyper fan

"kilig" is a Filipino term. It's like... excitement, love, and something all together that kind of makes you feel all giddy/ happy and like floating on air... Something like that... ;)

P.S. I was having LSS (Last Song Syndrome) the whole day to Kyuhyun-ssi's voice singing "Wooliga mannage" or however you spell that... :3

Dear Suju -6

Super Junior- Anan magazine

Dear Super Junior,

I got to watch "The Other Boleyn Girl" movie a night ago. It was very different from the book, but good nonetheless. I think I ought to have paid more attention to History when I was in elementary and high school... T_T I've started and finished reading "The Other Queen" too, these past three or so days... It was good, but not as entertaining as "The Other Boleyn Girl." That though, I think, may be attributed to the fact that TOBG had more intricate lies and plots than TOQ... ^^;; My aunt even argued that TOBG wasn't real, though it was historical fiction. It had basis.. >.> Oh well, respect your elders, eh?

I'm so envious of the ELFs who got to watch you on Tokyo Dome. I don't think I'll ever get to watch you perform live.. Yes, I'm losing hope. After this summer vacation (Until June 8), I won't have any more breaks other than weekends. Such a busy course I decided to take... :( But yeah, congratulations, Super Junior-ssi!!! You earned this glory, with all the hard work (blood, sweat, and tears, blah blah that they say) you've put in... Of course, we ELFs should also thank your parents for bringing you in this world and bringing you up to be who you are now...

Belated Happy Mothers' Day, Super Junior's Moms! Belated Happy Mothers' Day to all the moms out there~! ^-^

I think I shouldn't upload the pictures of what the radio played anymore... I'll just list them down...
May 10     9:28 AM         Super Junior          Opera (Jap.)
               11:05 AM         SHINee                Sherlock
                 4:18 PM         Super Junior          Way
                 4:43 PM         SHINee                 Love Like Oxygen
May 13   12:50 PM         SHINee                 Lucifer
                 1:12 PM         Music & Lyrics      Maybe Maybe
                 1:56 PM         B2ST                     Beautiful
May 14   11:47 AM         SHINee                Sherlock
               11:53 AM         Yesung                  It Has To Be You
               11:58 AM         Super Junior          Why I Like You
                 1:04 PM         B2ST                     Shock
                 1:49 PM         SHINee                 Stranger
                 1:59 PM         Super Junior           A Day
                 3:04 PM         Music & Lyrics      Maybe Maybe
                 3:54 PM         U-KISS                0330
                 3:57 PM         SHINee                Stand By Me
                 4:07 PM         Super Junior          A-CHA

I tried to make the lines above straight... I failed... Hehe... >.<

Love always,
your habitual, OC, wistful fan..

Dear Suju -5

Ryeowook + Kiki (giraffe)

Dear Super Junior,

The other day (May 11 in the Chicago), I heard "Opera" playing. Such glee. ^-^ I could imagine the MV playing, and how wonderful you all were. I just wish I am able to watch you perform live. It would be such an honor for me to watch such awesome performers... And even blindfolded, just to hear you sing live, would be an out-of-body experience for me... (SHINee's "Sherlock" was also played.. ^-^ They're my second bias...)

Yesterday, I got to listen to "Way," when my friend linked it to my facebook. Then I heard it a few hours later, on the radio! I didn't know that was the song from the first notes, unlike the more common songs, but I got this gut feeling that it was a Super Junior song, so I stood around for a few seconds until they showed the artist's name. Then I rushed to take a picture of it (though I can't upload it yet)... I was so happy. I heard it for the first time and again on the same day. It felt like a big big sign that I really shouldn't give up my fangirling on you...

So the reason why Ryeowook-ssi is the main picture... Because we went to the stores last night, and I saw this giraffe plushie by the cash register. And you probably know how I think by now.. Giraffe --> Ryeowook --> simple-minded happiness... ^o^ 

Today we went to outlet stores, the stores which supposedly have marked-down prices... We entered a random store, and my mom just suddenly started singing, "Because I naughty naughty.." Isn't that just funny/cute?? My friend thinks it's adorable, I do too, do you?? 

But really, the grammar's wrong... X.x I'm a little OC (obsessive-compulsive) about grammar, so sometimes I feel like contacting SME (no matter how impossible) and proofreading English lines for all SM artists (especially you)... T-T 

Oh! I envy Japan, they have you tonight for SS4... =( I don't even get to go to that concert, and California is far away... (36 hours to Los Angeles where my cousin lives, so it's a no-go for me).. Huhuhuhu... T_T 

Anyways, I think I've been a little weird because I only get to listen to your music once a day, whereas I used to listen for 6 hours a day... o.O I'm not that obsessed though, I just really get calmed down with your voices... I hope someday, if I am able to get married, I get to marry someone who has as great a voice and personality as any of you...

Love lots,

this odd, OC, weird, dizzy fan

Dear Suju -4

Sungmin, Kangin

Dear Super Junior,

Yesterday, I only got to hear one of your songs while reading, even though I waited for three hours. ='( That made me annoyed, since I thought they'd play at least one song per hour. They played A-Cha, the second song I was able to watch from its MV release to its (very) gradual decline. I tried to dance along, but I really don't know how, since my high school banned dancing (and even singing the word in the chorale competition was not allowed), and I studied there since nursery. Needless to say, I could not follow the moves. >.<

I had a headache today, so I placed cold compresses on both sides of my head and listened to YOUR music. I find your voices really calm me down, and before I knew it, three hours had passed. I had less headache thanks to you! ^-^ 

We went to the candy show today too, but I was not allowed inside because you needed to be affiliated with a company. Only my aunt could go inside, so my mom, grandma, and me waited outside. I read a book ("The Other Queen") while listening to your songs again. A great way to pass the time, don't you think??

Oh! I almost forgot, I woke up in the middle of the night last night, and the only thing going through my mind was your song "Don't Don." It started with Sungmin-ssi's part. ^^ Then when I really woke up this morning, "She Wants It" was playing on my mind. Heehee.. ^^

Yesterday too, I watched the full dance MV of Opera. I didn't know who to keep my eyes on, you were all so wonderful. Embarrassingly, I think Sungmin-ssi looks very seductive while dancing. My friend's bias in that dance is Yesung-ssi though... ~.n 

Today too, just before I started writing this, I read some accounts of when SNSD's Taeyeon called Kangin-ssi a retard... That made me a little annoyed. Honestly, although you are friends, I don't harbor love for them. I only like Sooyoung-ssi, because she looks the most natural and kind from all of them. She doesn't seem to be pose-y and doesn't seem to be showing much skin. Sometimes I think girl groups now are showing too much skin, honestly... >.<

I thought about this today: If I could get to meet you, even if I have to sleep on a pet bed, I'd agree! Hehe... I thought this because yesterday and three days ago, my mom and I looked around home supplies and we found a very very soft pet bed. I told her I liked it, and I could fall asleep instantly if I slept there. So I thought that if there is a one in a zillion chance to meet you, even with just that pet bed, I'd have no hesitations.

Love always,

this awkward, still desperate fan

Dear Suju -3

Super Junior- Opera  (...because I can't get over their handsomeness).. 

Dear Super Junior,

Today, I continued reading "The Other Boleyn Girl." I tuned in to Seoul FM again, just to see if it would work. They played Tohoshinki's song (but I forgot the title), and another one of theirs as DBSK. But of course, they played yours too (I might've missed some cause I woke up late), and here's the proof:

 Actually, the first three (Kyuhyun's Hope Is A Dream That Doesn't Sleep , Yesung's It Has To Be You, and Super Junior's Sorry Sorry-Answer) are yesterday's.. Today's are Yesung's It Has To Be You and SM the Ballad's Hot Times... Heehee... XD

Then we went to the botanical garden...
I saw a couple of things that reminded me of you again! :)
First, this: (Guess who I was reminded of!)

 The second was a turtle-like topiary... My mom has the picture, so I can't upload it now... ='(
The third...a pumpkin! (Cut my face out, hehehe)

The last... look at the name, but I misread it... @.@

Misread it as Fishy (aka Donghae)...

So yeah... I guess I'm that in love with you, Super Junior, that I can see you everywhere... @.@ But don't worry, I'm not one of those saesang (sp??) fans who'll follow you to your dorms and do weird stuff... I just have hopes that one day I might meet you. (What fan doesn't??)

We had three hours to go around the gardens actually, but my camera battery died on me and I couldn't tour the huge gardens in that time limit... @.@ I hope to come back there again someday... 

Love always,

this desperate, nature-loving fan of yours... 

Dear Suju -2

Yesung Donghae

Dear Super Junior,

Today I didn't do anything remarkable. I started reading "The Other Boleyn Girl" by Philippa Gregory, though it became famous ages ago.. (Just like I'm a new ELF though you've been famous a long time already.) It made me a little sad, you know... I could feel what Mary Boleyn felt.. Being overshadowed by her sister (and I have two) and controlled by her family, not being heard because she is young... Pretty sad, eh? I haven't gotten to the end yet, though I hope to finish the book by tomorrow...

While reading, I tuned in to the internet radio, and guess what! They played Kyuhyun-ssi's "Hope is a Dream That Doesn't Sleep." I took a picture of it, but I can't upload it now... When I heard the first notes, I immediately went to the radio and turned the volume up... My mom heard it too (because I called her). Then an hour later, they played Yesung-ssi's "It Has To Be You." I also went to the radio quickly and laid down beside it to listen... Then the radio wasn't able to connect to Seoul FM, so I changed stations to BIG something... o.O;; About 15minutes from tuning in, they played Sorry, Sorry- Answer!! Obviously, that just made my day... ^^

So the reason behind the picture... Today I went shopping with my mom, aunt, and grandmother.. Guess what I saw... A nemo __-holder (I wasn't able to read the label), and I was immediately reminded of Donghae-ssi! I swear, the first thing that registered on my mind was Donghae-ssi, not that it was nemo... :p Then walking further, I saw a turtle thing (no idea what it was either), and my thought immediately registered, "Yesung would love this." Hehe... If I knew you guys personally, I'd have bought those on sight! Sadly I don't.. :( 

There was another thing that reminded me of one of your members, but sadly, I cannot recall... Sorry! o.O

Anyway, I guess that although you've really taken over my interests, you're not exactly the only thing on my mind... Although my aunt said that if I say the words "Super Junior" for a hundred more times she'll scream... Meh, that's why I'm always quiet around family... They seem to tolerate my interests less.. ="(

So yeah, I have to think of you only once per day, so I don't use it all up... 

Jia you!!! Wo ai ni men!! :) 

Love always,

This crazy, weird, shy, ever-hoping-to-see-you-perform-live ELF. 

Dear Suju

Super Junior

Dear Super Junior,

Last Friday (May 4), three days ago, I boarded a plane to USA. It had Japan as a stopover. You know what my first thought was? That you were going to hold SS4 there soon. I soooo wanted to ask to be left behind, but I had no Japan visa nor a ticket to SS4... :( It really broke my heart knowing that soon you'll be there.

Stepping into Illinois, I realized with a broken heart that you'll be in California on May 20 (If the news  was correct). That was where my cousins lived! But too bad, I can't just go there to watch you guys perform... It's too expensive, and since school was still in session, only my aunt and uncle will be there... :'( Now, you will be near but still so far... (Although Philippines is just 4 hours by plane from Korea)...

Yesterday, I was so happy! My aunt taught me how to search the internet radio stations on her radio, and there were lots of Korean stations... We tuned in to one (Korea Top Radio), but your songs weren't played... I almost forgot, before that, we were tuned in to a Taiwan station, and they had a hit chart, Donghae-ssi and Eunhyuk-ssi's "Oppa Oppa (Jap.)" was number 2! They only played about 10 seconds' worth though! (SHINee's Sherlock was number 1.) 

So when Korea Top Radio didn't play any Super Junior song for 30 minutes, I changed the channel to Seoul FM. I had to bathe though (it was early in the  morning), so I told my mom to call me and turn up the volume if any of your songs played... And she did! I couldn't hear the start well, so I asked her if it was really yours. She was sure, she said (she tried to sing along but I couldn't understand her).. It was "Tai Wan Mei (Kor. ver.)!! No need to say I think, that I sang along. 

I think she recognized the song as yours because, 1. I play your songs at home like 6 hours a day, and 2. Her bias is Kyuhyun-ssi... ^^

Yesterday too, I went to the library (a haven and a heaven for a bookworm like me).. I was lonely and it was so quiet, then I remembered I had my ipod with me... I brightened up instantly! I have 313 songs of yours (different versions, cuts from shows, sukira, etc) while I had less than 100 English + Chinese songs... Of course, I wasn't so lonely after... XD 

Oh!! Today I was so happy, the time here is different from Korea, so I got to see the Opera full MV before my friends did (since it was only 5AM in the Philippines when it was posted in PumpkinMinPH)... I just have to say...

Super Junior-ssi! You really are tai wan mi!! <3 

Kyuhyun-ssi, you made my heart stop when I heard your voice...

Yesung-ssi, you made me catch my breath when I saw you on the couch...

I'd go on and on but really, it was so breathtaking and heartstopping and I think I died when I watched it...

Extreme fangirling, right? I must've scared you off by now... But really, THANK YOU SO MUCH, Super Junior-ssi!! Without you, my everyday life was so boring and repetitive. I went to school, got home, study, go online just to play games, went to bed, and repeated. Now, I look forward to updates about you, watch your videos while studying, and get to talk to other people more (because if anyone talks about you, I'm all hyper, though I'm usually introverted)...

I really wish someday I'd get to meet you. Promise I won't be this hyper and random. I think I might get starstruck a bit though, but I'll get back to normal soon, promise... I even joke to my ELF friend that I'd apply to be a doctor in SME, just so I'd get to help you when you get hurt (though I'd hate it if any of you get hurt again)... :( But really, I want to go to Korea and study traditional medicine... It would be a 'two birds with one stone' thing... ^^ 

Couldn't you guys have a fanmeet here in Illinois between now and June 6?? Or in the Philippines after June6?? *bawls*

Love lots,

this random, slightly ADHD, slightly extremely OC, maybe bipolar, so-called neurotic fan...

hermion8

Day X

Wahh~~~~~ I totally broke my 365 days of SuJu... </3 Mianhae, Suju- oppa!!! X.x

I just HAD to post here because I just saw (a few seconds ago) Wookie in their Boom Boom performance in May 14, 2010... And he was just so adorable!!! Wookie-ah, why are you so cute??? I can't resist squealing, even if my parents are only a few feet away!!! And when my best friend's friend sent me a link of some of Super Junior members' baby pictures, Ryeowook is the only one I could recognize!!

I want to have babies as cute as Wookie someday!! But I'm still very young, and without a bf, so... =)) But SuJu is just so loveable!!! 

Always a fangirl,

Em

Day 16 to Day 18

My Super Junior favorites!! Super Junior KRY (Kyuhyun, Ryeowook, Yesung), and Leeteuk!! ♥♥♥

If only I would get to see you guys smile at me... I'd be happier than ever... Instead of how bad I'm feeling right now... Good intentions really are never seen as what they are, since people have different principles... Oh well, guess the mess my life's in right now shouldn't get any worse... I really don't want to blog about my sadness, but  I have to study and I have no other outlet than Super Junior... >.>

Saranghae~ saranghae~

I'll try to upload a fanfic in the weekend... Ja...

Day 12 to Day 15

Super Junior- GDA awards

Waah... So sorry I'm only posting now, but I haven't forgotten Super Junior one bit! I think of you everyday, even when I'm supposed to be studying... >.> So I guess now if I fail, it'll be Super Junior's fault... for being awesome... ♥♥♥

I promised I'll try to release drabbles/ stories/ fanfiction about Super Junior, but... Kyaa~ I'm so addicted to just staring at them and reading fanfiction about YeWook/ KyuWook that I can't gather my thoughts!! Yah, Kim Ryeowook, get out of my head for a bit... You too, Yesung, Kyuhyun, Leeteuk!! X.x

I wish more of you would tweet in English, since it's only Siwon's I get to understand... But soon enough I'll learn Korean... Hehehe... And Japanese (I've been trying for 7 years! T_T )...Anyways, I have to sleep now, I still have school later... :(

♥,

Em

Day 11

Congrats, Super Junior!! XD You deserve it so much!! ♥♥♥♥ So happy I can say that I voted for them, hehe... Starting today, I shall try to make Super Junior fanfiction drabbles, since I'm trying to post everyday anyway... Learning about them winning 4 awards is kind of lifting my spirits, since I just failed miserably on the exam today.. :( 

I'm not inspired yet today, but maybe tomorrow?? My brain is all dried up from the two consecutive exams we just finished and with the project/ clinico-patho conference we had to prepare for tomorrow... *sigh* And whoever thought studying Medicine was alright...Well... It's HARD... Learning is fun, but trying to learn hundred pages' worth of information is so tiring... Especially since you stay up all night to finish it... That's why I feel like I know how Super Junior feels when they sleep for only a few hours and have to rehearse all day, especially when they don't have much time to eat... I myself forget to eat when faced with piles of schoolwork... >.<

Miracle

[credits: http://sujupinas07.multiply.com/journal/item/17]

Life couldn't get better

You've changed my ordinary life (a holiday) 

And all the people in the world look happy (I wanna thank you baby)

When I first saw you (first saw you) a miracle (a miracle) 

I felt the miracle, it was you

 Life couldn't get better (hey~) 

Because Super Junior IS a miracle~

Day 10

Super Junior's Yesung- and his twin (from Yesung's twitter)

Haha... Because Showbiz Korea is talking about stars who look like animals... This is directly taken from his twitter, so he's the one who noticed it!! Hahaha... The cat's extremely adorable~ And Yesung too, of course!! Though it kind of makes me feel weird since I told somebody that Yesung looks like one of our classmates... Hehehe... Kind of awkward in a way... =))

Yesung-ssi,
Stay adorable!! :) I shall make your voice my reason to stay awake and focused on studying tonight... I hope you always stay healthy and happy like this pic... ♥♥

♥,

Em

Day 9

Super Junior- Choi Siwon

Siwon-ssi,

*hug* 

I don't know what I would do if I hadn't discovered Super Junior last year... Right now I'm extremely stressed to the point of giving up, but listening to your songs rejuvenate me... I draw strength from listening to your awesome voices... :) Thank you for being Super Junior... 

Thank you for always having smiles whenever you appear.. Your smiles make me feel happy too... :)

Always, 

Em

Day 8

Super Junior- Super Man

Yey! I got to watch Super Man three times today... Classes were suspended because of the Black Nazarene, though it really couldn't have fallen for the worst time...We needed to have the lectures today because it's RENAL... I don't understand it well.. :( But I'm happy Super Junior is on 2nd place!! Yey!! :)

I'm busy right now, but I just have to say... Saranghae, Super Junior!! The Last Man Standing! :)

Day 7

Number 1 Leader- Leeteuk

Dear Leeteuk,

I don't ever imagine you'll be reading this, but all the same, I'd like to wish you would.. Hehe...

I'm still heartbroken over the fact that you won't be coming here to do Super Show 4.. But I really wish you guys the best in your shows in other places... You guys inspire me to work hard, though I really should be studying right now instead of typing this... Hehe...

I hope you don't get hurt in the military.. I'm really sad that I've only started to like you, then you all start to be inactive... (I watched Heechul host in Secret though I didn't know he was part of Super Junior until he left for the military)... :( Ganbatte! Jia you! Aja! 

♥♥♥ saranghae,

Em

Marry U

[credits: http://kitty-for-me.blogspot.com/2007/12/super-junior-marry-u.html]

Saying I love you is what I want to do the most everyday in my life
Would you marry me? I want to love you, treasure you, and live with you
I want you to lean on my shoulders each time you sleep
Would you marry me?
With this heart of mine, will you accept me?

To accompany you for the whole lifetime, I do
To love you, I do
Regardless of snow and rain, i will be there to protect you, I do
Let me be the one to protect you, my love

Day 6

Super Junior- A-Cha

I was supposed to post yesterday, but this wouldn't open in my nook... :(

I was really really happy when I got to watch Super Junior's year-end countdown in Music Bank!! I waited for them until they closed the show, since I didn't know when they would perform.. Hehehe... I didn't get to watch them when it was live since the neighbors' loud partying (2 simultaneous parties, by the way) gave me a headache... :(

I got to watch Showbiz Korea, where they showed the results of the surveys for the following (and others I forgot):

Top 7 concerts foreign fans want to see

Top 7 songs foreign fans loved in 2011 (not sure of the exact name)

Top 7 artists foreign fans want to date (not sure of the exact name)

Let's just say I was jumping up and down and squealing when they revealed the number 1...

Super Junior!!! 

Mr. Simple!!

1. Donghae. 2. Kyuhyun. 3. G-Dragon. 4. Eunhyuk.5. Heechul. 6. Leeteuk. 7. TOP.

♥♥♥Even though I didn't vote (coz I didn't know how), hooray!! Good job, ELFs!! :)

Though my top 7 would only include one... SUPER JUNIOR.. As Leeteuk says, Super Junior is one, that is why they are the Last mAn standing! <3 But my top favorites in Super Junior will still be KRY, Leeteuk, Siwon... Why?

When I closed my eyes listening to No Other, I picked out the voices that made me smile... Ryeowook; then the second time, Yesung; then last, Kyuhyun... Then I got to watch Kyuhyun in Immortal Classics/Songs and let's just say I fell madly in love with him and his wit.. My mom pointed out Leeteuk when I was watching Mr. Simple (I think?), and I've been in love with him and his dimples since... I got to watch Siwon in Poseidon way before I found out he was in Super Junior... and loved the OST before I found out it was Kyuhyun's voice... Funny how the world always leads me back to Super Junior... Coz I always loved listening to the Spy Myeongwol OST and searched for it online only to find it was sang by Ryeowook (If You Love Me More)! <3 and Cinderella's Sister OST as well (sang by Yesung)...

Let's just say I'm very proud to be an ELF who started loving Super Junior because of their voices and loved them more because of their personalities..♥♥♥♥♥♥

Day 5

Mr. Simple- Super Junior

I'm so brokenhearted!! Super Junior won't be having their SS4 in the Philippines... A fan said it's most likely due to the inability of our stadiums to be able to support the things SuJu would show in SS4... I definitely agree with that. Although I would never cease hoping to see them, when I saw cuts of their SS4 in Korea (courtesy of Arirang), I knew they wouldn't be able to perform as grand here. I even thought that I'd rather go to Korea (and not understand a word SuJu will say) than watch it here and be sad at the inadequacy of our country to hold concerts as astounding and risky as theirs... But still!!! I'll keep on wishing they would come here, especially since Korea is 4 hours (?) away and Siwon, Kyuhyun, and Eunhyuk had just visited... 

It also broke my heart when I finally read the article about the SBS Gayo Daejun.. I only heard about it in forums and didn't see the members' tweets... It's very sad that the members themselves apologized when they did NOTHING WRONG... :(( SMEnt, please be kinder to the boys.. It's been 6 years since they've debuted and lead the Hallyu wave, but I can only feel that SNSD is promoted more (but I don't hate them)... Especially when I saw the Christmas pics of the two SNSD girls, but no picture of SuJu.. 

[article: http://www.allkpop.com/2011/12/super-junior-expresses-frustration-over-sbs-gayo-daejun-pre-recording-mishap] 

She's Gone

[credits: http://sjfantasy.wordpress.com/media/lyrics/love-is-leaving-translation/]

Even words of apology
Although I’m as sorry as this
What could a person like me
Say and how could I say it
Like I can’t breathe, I’m dizzy
Inside lost time
Even if I roam quickly
The only thing I could do now
Is that I can’t do anything
When I see you with your back turned to me
The time love clearly took
Now I can see it too
Like a time of separation
I saw it coming
I didn’t know you were such a part of me

Day 4

Ceci Magazine screenshot- Ryeowook and Siwon

Kyaa~ Too busy already, and just the first day of class resumption! Aren't the boys just handsome in the pic??^^ Ryeowook-shi looks great even when he's dressed up as a bad guy... XD And of course, Siwon-shi looks just as good!

I saw Siwon's tweet about 40minutes ago, and the picture is bad~~~ Hehehe... Bad Kyuhyun and Eunhyuk!!! They really should add interaction with girls... Hehehe... (Can I volunteer?? Wahahaha!)

Will love Super Junior forever,
Em

Day 3

Super Junior- from Leeteuk's twitter

Can't believe it, I haven't done anything related to SuJu today.. First day since I became a fan!! Though.. I did check Eeteuk's, Siwon's, and Yesung's twitters before writing this... ;) But I only did less fangirling today since I had to help with my group's research and had to finish check-up.. >.< 

I hear most the groups I liked when I was a kid are coming to do concerts here in the Philippines... Even the oldies groups my parents like...My big question was.. "Where's my Super Junior???" Hehehehe... I think I've made my parents and siblings tired of the words "Super Junior" within the past month... 

While I was writing this, my mom even called me down from the first floor (I'm in the third floor), but I couldn't hear her well... My dad said, (English translation) "Maybe it's your Super Junior.." =)) =)) So now Super Junior is MINE! Wahaha... My parents said so... hehehehe... I've been trying to teach my mom which Super Junior member is which... She was even the one who pointed to Eeteuk/ Leeteuk, which made me notice how awesome he is... <3 <3 My eldest sister also likes Eeteuk! Hehehe.... XD

No Other (First few lines)

[credits: http://yuyaindou.blogspot.com/2010/07/super-junior-no-other.html]

There’s no one like you, even if I look around it’s just like that

Where else to look for? A person good like you, a person good like you, a heart good like you, a gift good like you

How lucky, the person who will try hard to protect you is just me

Where else to look for? A guy happy like me, a guy happy like me, a guy who laughs with the greatest happiness like me

Your two warm hands get cold when I’m cold, your heart which used to be strong gets sensitive when I’m hurt

To silently take my hands, to silently hold me, I only wish for those small comforts

You don’t know this heart of mine, which always wants to do more for you

Day 2

KRY anyone?

So today I delved in the world of fanfiction again, to satisfy my curiosity on how fanfiction writers see the characteristics of the SuJu members... As expected, I couldn't stick to an OTP... (Sorry, shounen-ai haters..) I couldn't choose which I loved more, Yesung x Ryeowook or Kyuhyun x Ryeowook... hahaha... I admit, the Super Junior mini-drama Dangerous Friendship had a lot of influence with my Yewook pairing, though with the fanvids I see, I'm starting to like Sungmin x Ryeowook as well.. Especially since their voices sound so good together... ^^

I also started to watch Mystery 6 tonight, which I thought I'd be too terrified to watch alone. It turns out it's not that bad... Especially with the hilarious antics of Super Junior... XD But Attack on the Pin-up Boys is just as good, too bad Leeteuk/ Eeteuk and Kyuhyun weren't there.. :(

Have to sleep soon enough, annyeong~

Superman chorus [credits:http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=237731579602048]

Our scale is the best and our scale is the best

Everything has to be the best

Super Junior is only missing the ‘man’ from the name of ‘superman’

Our passion is the best and our concentration is the best

Who would be able to say we’ve finished

Super Junior is only missing the ‘man’ from the name of ‘superman’

-->Wouldn't you like to be rescued by this Superman?? :)